OMG I have so much shit to do today and I'm freaking lazy... I'm finally off work so I just want to like lounge lol
at least I've started some things I need to get done....
anywayyyy

I am so stoked about tomorrow! Danielle and I are starting boxing classes! we're going to be such bad asses! well if we like it, maybe it'll suck and we will never go back.

I have like nothing to talk about just a bunch of random thoughts soo I'm done for now!

I think I'm going to start a new livejournal bc I dont like looking back on those old posts.. if I do Ill let you know!
xxx

IM GOING TO KILL MY MOTHER!!!!!
and her husband while I'm at it.

I CANNOT DEAL WITH EITHER OF THEM ANYMORE
I need a fucking car and job and I'm done, I'll live in my car if I have to
rock and roll

I'm so annoyed, all I have to say is thank god for the russian!

it's been awhile.. not much to say..

I work A LOT.

Jensen turned 18 and we did it up right, 
strip club ( a random guy bought us 3 table dances)
she bought cigarettes and got peirced i got tattoed
and we went to 80's night at the masquerade(you have to be 18 to get in) where we ran into Andy who has moves you've NEVER seen
so we had almost every cliche covered..

I'M TERRIBLY BORED so....I took pictures of myself

I finally got a new fucking usb cable
so these are some older pictures of me and Natalie and other people

I'm convinced EVERY guy in the world is a douche bag
and if there are any who aren't I've never met them.

how do you call someone you haven't talked to in months
ask them if they want to hang out so you can fuck them
and then be shocked when they think you're an asshole??

what a fucking loser

I don't think I ever want to talk to a guy again
they're all stupid as fuck



oh and

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RASPBERRY!!!!!!!!!!

... and Kailtyn
I fucking love the song "Between the Bars" on the either/or cd!!!!!
that is probably the cutest song in the world
.....well it's up there with "love cats" by The Cure and "you never can tell" by Chuck Berry

I really want to see Silent Hill...
it looks good
you know what doesn't look good?


.......Slither, what the fuck is that?

Why am I incapable of liking someone who equally likes me?
is that really that impossible?
"oh when I move back home it'll be easier"
FUCK YOU, YOU'RE HOME EVERY GOD DAMN WEEKEND
5 FUCKING MINUTES DOWN THE STREET
and still nothing......

you like me???
well then fucking show it
if you like me so much how come I'm the very last of your priorities?
why do I only get to see you when I make the effort to?
why am I the ONLY one of us who does make effort?

and then I have all these other fuckers I don't like
who are asking me to hang out with them constantly
but not you
not the one I want to be with
of course not

I just thought after so long things would eventually start working
and it'd be easier and I'd love someone who loves me
but apparently for me that is never going to happen
I'll always be turning down people who like me
while I'm loving someone who doesn't
I guess that's my thing.

The Three 13 interview went really well
I have to call her back and hopefully I can start by May
until then for money
I think Chris is going to help me get a job at hollywood video
which wont be quite as fun or anything but I need money from somewhere!

I'm so ghetto today I was re-dying my roots
and after wards I washed off the gloves and kept them....
just in case ya know I ever need latex gloves
I'm retarded

I'm so sick of boys
can't you ever just be friends with them?
If one more guy asks me "ohh so is that your man?"
in that cocky I'm better than him way
I'll kill them alllllllll

don't these losers understand I don't like them????????

a few weeks ago Natalie and I applied for an apprenticeship at Three 13
and we were supposed to call them back
but I didn't and today Lyndsey from three 13
called me and said they liked our looks and applications
and wanted us to come in for a group interview tomorrow!!!!!

no one was happy for me except my sister and Ryan

I'm so excited but I don't know if anything will come of it
so I don't want to be too excited..
even if I don't get this I'm going to start at Empire as soon as I can
so it doesn't matter
the only thing is I still need a job!
it's SO hard to find one.

GOD I HAVE NOTHING TO WEAR TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!

if this is you "caring" about me
then I don't want you to.
you can just keep all your good friends
that never do anything wrong.
who are so much more intelligent and responsible than me
because I am NOTHING like you.

and my problems aren't stupid just because you've never experienced them
you've never had a relationship
you're too busy being full of yourself and trying to make eveyone do what you want
honestly if you died tomorrow how would you feel about your life?
I mean yeah you made some good grades and good choices
but you never really lived

Look at Brett he's one of the smartest people I know
and he graduated
now he's homeless and works all these menial jobs
and David got great grades, graduated and now he works at Pizza hut.

It's not about grades
it's ambition, it's what you do with yourself

and come to think of it you are a lot like my mom
you say I have potential and all this
but you don't mean it
you don't actually think I can do anything
and clearly you don't see I'm trying.

stop taking life so seriously, you'll never get out alive.

we're all slumping towards the same inevitable fate
what does it matter if you become succesful or not?
you're still no better than me
we're all gonna end up the same.

1) 94% of men lie about their penis size.
According to condom manufacturers, only 6% of
men use extra large condoms.

2) The average man is 5 inches long when erect
(no matter what you have heard ladies, that's the
truth).{(i feel no need to lie though because i figure
that she's going to findout anyway)}

3) 80% of American men are circumsized. Even
though Pediatrics say it is not necessary.

4) No matter what all the ads say, nothing can
make your penis grow but time (most men reach
the end of their growth by the early 20's)

5) There is no correlation between penis size and
shoe size, hand size, or nose size.

6) Blue balls does exist! It's technically
called "prostatic congestion."

7) Only 16% of men shave their privates.

+Some stuff on the ladies+
------------------------------

1) Only 9% of women around the globe consider
themselves "attractive" (20% of British women
do).
43% of women use the term "natural", 24% say
they have "average" looks, 8% prefer the
term "feminine", 7% say they are "good looking",
and 7% say they are "cute", and finally only 2% of
women say they are "sexy".

2) An estimated 85% of women wear the wrong
size bra.
3) 60% of women have had breast implants.
4) 75% of women dont like oral sex
5) 95% of women shave their privates.

+Both+
--------------------------------
1) Masturbation is healthy for both men and
women.

2) 70% of highschoolers have had sex before
they have graduated. 27% loose their virginity senior
prom night. Only 3% wait until marriage.

3) 95% of men would have sex with a girl after 1
month of dating. Only 10% of women feel this way.

+5 Reasons Why Sex is Good+
---------------------------------------------
1) It is a good workout. Sex burns about 150
calories every half an hour of it. It will lower your
cholesterol and improve breathing circulation.

2) You won't get sick. According to research if
you have sex 1-2 times a week you are less likely to
get sick.

3) You'll feel happier. You will feel a greater sense
of well-being. Women who have more sex were
clinically proven to be less depressed than women
who dont have sex.

4) Makes you look better - [ problem is, ugly people
don`t get any ]. Sex releases hormones in you which make your skin and hair softer and shinier and tone your physique.

5) (The best reason) You will live longer. Studies
prove that sex makes you live longer. Men who
had sex 1-2 times a week had half the death rate
as those who did not indulge themselves at least
once a month. It also makes you look younger. If
you have sex 3 times a week you may look up to
10 years younger than you really are.

Did You Know?
----------------------------------------
1) Having sex 3 times a week for 1 year adds up
to running 75 miles!!!!

2) having sex increases the amount cortisol and adrenaline in your brain inturn making you smarter. so getting fucked on test day is actually a good thing!!

I'M SICCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKK

and my nose started bleeding today, from all the coke.
I'm going to the doctor hopefully I don't die.

I think I want extensions and I also think I left my USB cable in South Carolina
and without it I may die if I don't die from my disease first

Today Jiz and I went out to eat
and then played suicide and spin the knife
then we felt attached to the knives and took them with us
(We're losers)

then we bought ice cream at walmart

when we got home we found and listened to
all these old now cds
with backstreet boys, britney spears and hanson
it was so funny

we both secretly love it, don't tell.

does anyone else remember third eye blind?
I LOVED THEM! 

I FUCKING HATE BRETT

why was I never good enough for him?

South Carolina makes Jiznen and I the laziest people EVER!
all we do is eat, watch movies, read and sleep.
and of course we take time out to do what best friends do
MAKE OUT!
just kidding,
what I was going to say is look through People magazine
and make fun of everyone.

I woke up at 4 today!
what the fuck is that about?
I probably would've slept longer
but Jiznen woke me up because she was hungry,
sounds like she's my kid, lol.

I don't have much to say due to the lack of events in SC
I think everything really does move slower here.