You don't like me cause your boy most likely does

need me to fall down so you can climb up, some fool ass ladder well good luck

Tue, 10 Feb 2009 16:55:52 GMT

Well I wont be going to boxing classes today, the girl I was supposed to go with, my "friend", and I got into a big argument.
She is getting married and June and I was supposed to be her maid of honor, but recently found out apparently she's got a problem with all my tattoos and got mad because of the haircut I want.. WTF? I had tattoos and she knew how I was wayyyy before she ever asked me to be in her wedding.
My question is what kind of person is more concerned with her image than with keeping friendships.
The only person she cares to keep in her life anyway is her fiance so I'm sure she'll be fine with the fact that I now refuse to even attend this wedding. I mean this argument was so ridiculous, she expects me to basically plan my whole life around HER wedding.
and I hate to say it but
YOURE 19 AND YOU'VE LIKE ONLY BEEN WITH HIM
you're going to be so fucking sad when you look back and realize that you've missed out on a lot of fun in life
because you can't do anything or have friends because of him now, just wait till you are married.
you will have no one from that point on but him, and I hope that will be enough for you.

I can give you what you want

Tue, 10 Feb 2009 00:02:10 GMT

I got my gauges today I am so stoked! I put in the next size up, its gonna take forever to get to 00.... and its not gonna be fun at all.
No work today which was pretty lovely but extremely unproductive I did laundry and that was mostly it.

I needed to clean out and vacuum my stupid car, maybe Ill do that tomorrow after boxing, if I'm not totally dead.

let me see your hips swing

Mon, 09 Feb 2009 15:08:22 GMT

OMG I have so much shit to do today and I'm freaking lazy... I'm finally off work so I just want to like lounge lol
at least I've started some things I need to get done....
anywayyyy

I am so stoked about tomorrow! Danielle and I are starting boxing classes! we're going to be such bad asses! well if we like it, maybe it'll suck and we will never go back.

I have like nothing to talk about just a bunch of random thoughts soo I'm done for now!

I think I'm going to start a new livejournal bc I dont like looking back on those old posts.. if I do Ill let you know!
xxx

this building is totally burning down!

Sun, 08 Feb 2009 19:32:01 GMT

So I'm at work and my friend Danielle has never heard of livejournal and I was showing her what it is, and I am SHOCKED to see how many people still use it! Now I decided that I want to use it again.
Start looking forward to new posts!
I've gotta make sure I delete some people first because I'm sure there are some people I don't want reading my shit.

Peace.

tonight to compensate I will, I will poison myself

Fri, 04 Aug 2006 15:54:54 GMT

IM GOING TO KILL MY MOTHER!!!!!
and her husband while I'm at it.

I CANNOT DEAL WITH EITHER OF THEM ANYMORE
I need a fucking car and job and I'm done, I'll live in my car if I have to
rock and roll

I'm so annoyed, all I have to say is thank god for the russian!

you took him off my hands now please take him off my mind

Sat, 17 Jun 2006 01:43:24 GMT

it's been awhile.. not much to say..

I work A LOT.

Jensen turned 18 and we did it up right,
strip club ( a random guy bought us 3 table dances)
she bought cigarettes and got peirced i got tattoed
and we went to 80's night at the masquerade(you have to be 18 to get in) where we ran into Andy who has moves you've NEVER seen
so we had almost every cliche covered..

I'M TERRIBLY BORED so....I took pictures of myself

a cheep ploy to show you my tattoo

Oranges trying to escape!

ohh and..

it says haligh haligh a lie haligh. it's from Bright Eyes. this pictures pretty fucking blurry

If I had a nickle for every damn dime I'd have half the time

Mon, 29 May 2006 19:41:39 GMT

Brett wore a tin Yamica while he was sleeping

Jiznen playing with her camera

Veronica trying to learn to tie a tie

This is a pantry, not a grocery store.....

This is the sweater Jensen gave me when I got cold....

My bathingsuit

Me and Justin and Ola..........I don't know why they're so small Ola resized them

our prom picture..lol

so it is like you said it would be we'll both forget the breeze, most of the time

Sat, 20 May 2006 22:33:56 GMT

me nat and lauren

we're freaks

natalie looking awfully beachy

me and lauren carved ouf initials on this tree

this looks like a cd cover

me and lauren

me and lauren look fucked up in this one

there was no power at alex's apartment

putting my face on

my hair cut

i look so pale next to her

lauren attacking alex

oranges squeezing his head

trust me we're really talking...

lauren's awesome picture taking skills

this is the cell phone strap i just bought on e-bay!!!!!!!

this boat is obviously sinking

Wed, 17 May 2006 18:22:39 GMT

I finally got a new fucking usb cable
so these are some older pictures of me and Natalie and other people

some of these are from Davids party some are just us drinking at Devins and some are from our watergun fight

Natalie

I don't know what was so funny

all wet

Natalie when we went to play ouja at the cemetery

Alex showing me love

Devin getting the beer I spilled off my shirt

Natalie and I trying to be Scurry

it started raining in the cemetery

Natalie and Alex!

HAHA me and Brent and David's beer hat

David...?

Could she look anymore drunk?

I look like a ghost

Frenchie

Alex

I look like a duck

Sugar, Natalies pinkish dog

7 years bad luck....

I'm not cute, I'm a badass

Alex gets all the ladies

...so do I

she even fills a cup enthusiastically

My miller lite ad

nothing to live for when I'm sleeping alone

Wed, 19 Apr 2006 18:33:44 GMT

I'm convinced EVERY guy in the world is a douche bag
and if there are any who aren't I've never met them.

how do you call someone you haven't talked to in months
ask them if they want to hang out so you can fuck them
and then be shocked when they think you're an asshole??

what a fucking loser

I don't think I ever want to talk to a guy again
they're all stupid as fuck

oh and

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RASPBERRY!!!!!!!!!!

... and Kailtyn
I fucking love the song "Between the Bars" on the either/or cd!!!!!
that is probably the cutest song in the world
.....well it's up there with "love cats" by The Cure and "you never can tell" by Chuck Berry

Wed, 05 Apr 2006 03:10:00 GMT

I really want to see Silent Hill...
it looks good
you know what doesn't look good?

.......Slither, what the fuck is that?

If I had a nickle for every damn dime I'd have half the time

Sat, 01 Apr 2006 23:16:38 GMT

Why am I incapable of liking someone who equally likes me?
is that really that impossible?
"oh when I move back home it'll be easier"
FUCK YOU, YOU'RE HOME EVERY GOD DAMN WEEKEND
5 FUCKING MINUTES DOWN THE STREET
and still nothing......

you like me???
well then fucking show it
if you like me so much how come I'm the very last of your priorities?
why do I only get to see you when I make the effort to?
why am I the ONLY one of us who does make effort?

and then I have all these other fuckers I don't like
who are asking me to hang out with them constantly
but not you
not the one I want to be with
of course not

I just thought after so long things would eventually start working
and it'd be easier and I'd love someone who loves me
but apparently for me that is never going to happen
I'll always be turning down people who like me
while I'm loving someone who doesn't
I guess that's my thing.

I saw your face in a crowded place and I don't know what to do

Fri, 31 Mar 2006 03:46:09 GMT

The Three 13 interview went really well
I have to call her back and hopefully I can start by May
until then for money
I think Chris is going to help me get a job at hollywood video
which wont be quite as fun or anything but I need money from somewhere!

I'm so ghetto today I was re-dying my roots
and after wards I washed off the gloves and kept them....
just in case ya know I ever need latex gloves
I'm retarded

I'm so sick of boys
can't you ever just be friends with them?
If one more guy asks me "ohh so is that your man?"
in that cocky I'm better than him way
I'll kill them alllllllll

don't these losers understand I don't like them????????

I'll go to college and I'll learn some big and i'll talk real loud, god damn right i'll be heard

Wed, 29 Mar 2006 04:48:25 GMT

a few weeks ago Natalie and I applied for an apprenticeship at Three 13
and we were supposed to call them back
but I didn't and today Lyndsey from three 13
called me and said they liked our looks and applications
and wanted us to come in for a group interview tomorrow!!!!!

no one was happy for me except my sister and Ryan

I'm so excited but I don't know if anything will come of it
so I don't want to be too excited..
even if I don't get this I'm going to start at Empire as soon as I can
so it doesn't matter
the only thing is I still need a job!
it's SO hard to find one.

GOD I HAVE NOTHING TO WEAR TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!

the master and his servant have EXACTLY the same fate

Sun, 19 Mar 2006 00:35:44 GMT

if this is you "caring" about me
then I don't want you to.
you can just keep all your good friends
that never do anything wrong.
who are so much more intelligent and responsible than me
because I am NOTHING like you.

and my problems aren't stupid just because you've never experienced them
you've never had a relationship
you're too busy being full of yourself and trying to make eveyone do what you want
honestly if you died tomorrow how would you feel about your life?
I mean yeah you made some good grades and good choices
but you never really lived

Look at Brett he's one of the smartest people I know
and he graduated
now he's homeless and works all these menial jobs
and David got great grades, graduated and now he works at Pizza hut.

It's not about grades
it's ambition, it's what you do with yourself

and come to think of it you are a lot like my mom
you say I have potential and all this
but you don't mean it
you don't actually think I can do anything
and clearly you don't see I'm trying.

stop taking life so seriously, you'll never get out alive.

we're all slumping towards the same inevitable fate
what does it matter if you become succesful or not?
you're still no better than me
we're all gonna end up the same.

just so you know... (Ola I hope you read this)

Fri, 10 Mar 2006 17:17:20 GMT

1) 94% of men lie about their penis size.
According to condom manufacturers, only 6% of
men use extra large condoms.

2) The average man is 5 inches long when erect
(no matter what you have heard ladies, that's the
truth).{(i feel no need to lie though because i figure
that she's going to findout anyway)}

3) 80% of American men are circumsized. Even
though Pediatrics say it is not necessary.

4) No matter what all the ads say, nothing can
make your penis grow but time (most men reach
the end of their growth by the early 20's)

5) There is no correlation between penis size and
shoe size, hand size, or nose size.

6) Blue balls does exist! It's technically
called "prostatic congestion."

7) Only 16% of men shave their privates.

+Some stuff on the ladies+
------------------------------

1) Only 9% of women around the globe consider
themselves "attractive" (20% of British women
do).
43% of women use the term "natural", 24% say
they have "average" looks, 8% prefer the
term "feminine", 7% say they are "good looking",
and 7% say they are "cute", and finally only 2% of
women say they are "sexy".

2) An estimated 85% of women wear the wrong
size bra.
3) 60% of women have had breast implants.
4) 75% of women dont like oral sex
5) 95% of women shave their privates.

+Both+
--------------------------------
1) Masturbation is healthy for both men and
women.

2) 70% of highschoolers have had sex before
they have graduated. 27% loose their virginity senior
prom night. Only 3% wait until marriage.

3) 95% of men would have sex with a girl after 1
month of dating. Only 10% of women feel this way.

+5 Reasons Why Sex is Good+
---------------------------------------------
1) It is a good workout. Sex burns about 150
calories every half an hour of it. It will lower your
cholesterol and improve breathing circulation.

2) You won't get sick. According to research if
you have sex 1-2 times a week you are less likely to
get sick.

3) You'll feel happier. You will feel a greater sense
of well-being. Women who have more sex were
clinically proven to be less depressed than women
who dont have sex.

4) Makes you look better - [ problem is, ugly people
don`t get any ]. Sex releases hormones in you which make your skin and hair softer and shinier and tone your physique.

5) (The best reason) You will live longer. Studies
prove that sex makes you live longer. Men who
had sex 1-2 times a week had half the death rate
as those who did not indulge themselves at least
once a month. It also makes you look younger. If
you have sex 3 times a week you may look up to
10 years younger than you really are.

Did You Know?
----------------------------------------
1) Having sex 3 times a week for 1 year adds up
to running 75 miles!!!!

2) having sex increases the amount cortisol and adrenaline in your brain inturn making you smarter. so getting fucked on test day is actually a good thing!!

I want your warm but it will only make me colder when it's over

Wed, 08 Mar 2006 17:26:07 GMT

I'M SICCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKK

and my nose started bleeding today, from all the coke.
I'm going to the doctor hopefully I don't die.

I think I want extensions and I also think I left my USB cable in South Carolina
and without it I may die if I don't die from my disease first

their half hearted smiles tell me something just ain't right

Mon, 06 Mar 2006 07:19:46 GMT

Today Jiz and I went out to eat
and then played suicide and spin the knife
then we felt attached to the knives and took them with us
(We're losers)

then we bought ice cream at walmart

when we got home we found and listened to
all these old now cds
with backstreet boys, britney spears and hanson
it was so funny

we both secretly love it, don't tell.

does anyone else remember third eye blind?
I LOVED THEM!

kill me now

Sun, 05 Mar 2006 20:11:03 GMT

I FUCKING HATE BRETT

why was I never good enough for him?

you wasted life, why wouldn't you waste death?

Sat, 04 Mar 2006 23:52:15 GMT

South Carolina makes Jiznen and I the laziest people EVER!
all we do is eat, watch movies, read and sleep.
and of course we take time out to do what best friends do
MAKE OUT!
just kidding,
what I was going to say is look through People magazine
and make fun of everyone.

I woke up at 4 today!
what the fuck is that about?
I probably would've slept longer
but Jiznen woke me up because she was hungry,
sounds like she's my kid, lol.

I don't have much to say due to the lack of events in SC
I think everything really does move slower here.

I wanna hate you so bad, but I can't stop this anymore than you can

Fri, 03 Mar 2006 08:45:17 GMT

Why is this Layout fucked up?!?!
I hate it. and I hate LJ
it's too difficult to change layouts and stuff
anyway...
I'm in South Carolina.
and I think I'm getting sick, LAME

I NEED A JOB, how wants to hire me????

Tue, 28 Feb 2006 17:09:51 GMT

Jiznen and I went to waffle house last night
and found out one of our "friends" is a DOUCHE!!!

Apperently we have no culture.
OKAY
20 year old who works at waffle house and lives with parents
your cool...